excerpt from "Insomnia & Sleep Notes"
by Jenniey Tallman
viii.
After so many years of it now u learn a new way 2 rest where rapid eye movement does not insist
distress b/c once u were awake on a 3 day stint of sleep refusal & finally broke down at 4 am
--
a tree quaking in wind / a splash of meteorite from Jupiter — [u see it coming: PREDICTABLE
but UNSTOPPABLE & if u r not in bed hallucinating / fighting the urge 2 scratch the walls /
scream in the bathroom / u r on the kitchen floor petting the cat again] so from then on u no
longer aim 4 sleep but lie calmly in bed not expecting it anymore than a meteor / an earthquake:
close ur eyes & listen thru earbuds 2 MTM / Doctor Bailey & Meredith Grey / Clair / Niles /
Sam & Diane where Everybody Knows Your Name & it lulls u / even if it does not lead 2 rapid
eye movement — it lulls u.
After so many years of it now u learn a new way 2 rest where rapid eye movement does not insist
distress b/c once u were awake on a 3 day stint of sleep refusal & finally broke down at 4 am
--
a tree quaking in wind / a splash of meteorite from Jupiter — [u see it coming: PREDICTABLE
but UNSTOPPABLE & if u r not in bed hallucinating / fighting the urge 2 scratch the walls /
scream in the bathroom / u r on the kitchen floor petting the cat again] so from then on u no
longer aim 4 sleep but lie calmly in bed not expecting it anymore than a meteor / an earthquake:
close ur eyes & listen thru earbuds 2 MTM / Doctor Bailey & Meredith Grey / Clair / Niles /
Sam & Diane where Everybody Knows Your Name & it lulls u / even if it does not lead 2 rapid
eye movement — it lulls u.